The s-word

Should I do it? I should, shouldn’t I?

I really should. Frankly, everyone says I should. He said I should, and she said I should, and they never agree about anything. That should tell you everything.

Should I listen to them, though? I should, shouldn’t I?

Maybe I should just listen to me. I should just do it my way. I shouldn’t let others weigh in on my decision. I shouldn’t, should I?

This shouldn’t be so hard, though. Should it?

Maybe it should. My girlfriend says the fact that it’s so hard should tell me something. Maybe it should mean something. I should probably know what it should mean, but I don’t.

I really should have an answer by now. This should be the kind of thing that you just “know.”

I should just know.

I… Should… Just… Know.

I should.

Just…

No.

3 thoughts on “The s-word

  1. I enjoyed reading this little piece. I can relate to it very much.

    Is the decision about which grad school to go to?

    On Fri, Apr 22, 2016 at 1:58 PM, FASCINATED FERRET wrote:

    > fascinatedferret posted: “Should I do it? I should, shouldn’t I? I really > should. Frankly, everyone says I should. He said I should, and she said I > should, and they never agree about anything. That should tell you > everything. Should I listen to them, though? I should, shouldn’t ” >

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  2. Indeed.

    This piece is about the fact that the decision-making process has made me realize how much we all talk about what we “should” do; we constantly think about Should. But I struggle to think in terms of “want.” What do I actually want, regardless of what everyone says I “should” want? I know so very few people who are capable of understanding the difference between what they want and their concept of what they should do.

    In choosing a school, everyone tells me I “should” choose one or I “should” choose another — which means not everyone can be right. Who’s concept of “Should” wins? And why would one Should be better — Shouldier — than another? Should is a fiction. It’s a bad word. I want it to fly away from my vocabulary and never return.

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  3. I understand completely. Everyone’s got lots of great advice. But no one has to follow through with your decision but you. You’ve “gotta” live with your choice. It’s difficult not to listen to well-meaning friends, family, & co-workers. I do not envy your position right now! But… do keep us informed on what you decide! Good luck, and I know you’ll choose what’s best for you!

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